My Last Goodbye

If you had one last thing to say

For your family to be greatful

would you say it

or would you kill yourself instead

Would you let them think you died for no reason

or would you cry with them until the time came

would they understand your pain

or would they fight you until they died

would they try to save you

or would they feel guilty and hide

nothing stops you now

As you see your whole life flash before your eyes

Do they lurk in the shadows

or do their words lurk in your mind

do you pull the trigger

or do you put the gun down

the second choice is better

But only to say goodbye!

you pick it back up

and close your eyes

one last gut wrenching cry 

and then you drop limp

Your family mourns your death

and you watch crying at the lords side

And then they play your favorite song 

and sink you in the river at dawn

Dead!

Why is life so sad

Nothing I do takes away the pain

broken hearts and severed scars

they aren't simply fixed with bandaids

They are fixed with love 

But what happens when you lose a friend

the girl who likes your man

she never forgives you

not for what you have done

you split his heart in half

then you stole it back

She went to take it 

but it was already yours

now you don't know what to do

you lay awake at night 

wondering what you could have done

nothing comes to mind

until the night you picked up your first knife

you get only 2 hours sleep each night

nothing is ever enough to mend a broken life

so you just die 

die inside every day

Eventually it's to much

 More than a knife can help 

so you take that knife and drive it through your heart

and your dead!

Love of Lies

Why can't I let him go

I care way to much

but he looks at me

and he sees love

I look at myself

and see hurt, betrayel, and dishonesty

he doesn't realize

he deserves much better than me

but when he does

I'll be ready and waiting

To have a broken heart

Eventually we have to split

For we will go our seperate ways

but until that day I have to tell lies

Lies upon lies about love

People think I am not bad

if so why am I constantly in trouble

I need a break

away from reality

but the only place I can get that

is through love

Anyone's love would work

but he's the only one

Only one who truly loves me

For me.

so you see my love is filled with lies. 

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Publication Date: 01-11-2017

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Dedication:
This is a book of my poetry that I have written over the years. Please enjoy them. My heart and soul went into writing these.