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Email:  innercalmbuddha@gmail.com

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About Me

 My writings are a collection of my thoughts based on my spiritual journey going inwards to become self aware. This is my point of view, maybe from a self centered point of view, a lone wolf or perhaps a unique conscious mind. Yet...I don't have all of the answers because the truth is our own.

I was dealing with immigration issues so I ended up homeless in 2011. I spent 5 years homeless in Florida with my wife and child. I forced myself to keep doing yoga, tia chi, Wing Chun, chakra healing and later Kundalini yoga to make sure that I stayed Conscious during this hard period. I knew that if I let my homeless experience get to me, I would die or fall asleep and lose my higher awareness.

I now realized that All I wanted was a closer relationship with God. As I began to study myself going inwards, I realized that worry, holding on to my past and attempting to control things were affecting my behavior. I then realized that everything that happened in my past human experiences was supposed to happen, for learning about my behavior so that I could forgive myself and others to evolve in Love.

By letting go I began to recognize the voice of my soul, vs. my sporadic ego, combined with my scattered mind. I also began to see and slowly understand the universe within while growing in divine love. Working on my Chakras helped me experience Self Knowing and a Spiritual Awakening. Accepting that I am a narcissist helped me forgive myself. The attempt to change my personality profile to feel perfect was my worst mistake.

I later realized that I am no different than or exclusive to others, I once thought that I was special. I was the average guy living my life based on what I learned from the outside. I went to public school; I skipped some classes in high school, I only enjoyed writing. I felt like the school system was a boring temporary prison, the program felt to fixed for my taste, not enough personal depth.

I felt like a lost person with no direction because the school didn’t have spiritual or knowledge of self classes. I lived my life going through the motions, avoiding my true feelings because I was trying to be perfect. I was numbing myself, acting out of thoughts then emotions instead of feeling then emotions. I admit that I was not being aware of my spirit, and my psychology. I never thought that I was going to do anything exceptional either.

My spiritual journey, going within and then coming out. This awakening allowed me to see what was happening in my psyche, then seeing the correspondence in my experiences within my created reality. I have been fighting with abandonment issues for years. My journey within put me through many healing experiences with my chakras, such as working with sound and colors and intense visualization. I did a lot of crying as I let go of my past and let go of false pride.

I was a black sheep of my family, but thankfully working on healing allowed me to forgive myself and others so that I would be

Imprint

Publisher: BookRix GmbH & Co. KG

Publication Date: 04-14-2019
ISBN: 978-3-7487-0174-3

All Rights Reserved

Dedication:
There is no such thing as finding love because to find something, it must have been first lost. Love is free and abundant, enough for everyone on this planet. So there is no real need to seek or chase it, this why it gets harder to attract the Right One for you. The more we pursue love out of fear, and anxiety the further we push real love away. That's like saying I don't love me, love is out of reach, and I need someone else's love to feel whole, now we push self-love away, which is the love we should already have for ourselves. We can feel loved and complete when we are single. The right one is the one that loves you unconditionally, respecting you for who you are without judgment and criticism.